School, school, school!!

Guess what!?!

I am going to The University of Southern Indiana beginning in just a few weeks to embark on my journey towards a BA in Journalism!!! I am soo stoked!!

Now those of you who don't know me well, this may not seem like a big accomplishment or big deal; but let me tell you...this is epic!!! After High School, I went to an internship, then pretty much got straight into ministry and have been in that for about 4 years now! I just assumed I would never go to college, and there was never a strong desire in my heart to go regardless, so I was fine with that! However through my pilgrimage over the last couple of months; really looking inward [and upward!] seeking out the things God has put in my heart to do in this life...I've come to many different roads I could have taken. Tried walking down a few, got re-routed a few times too, and now, to finally be at this crossroads, I am thrilled!

I'm thrilled for a few reasons;

a. because it is something I really do have a deep interest in, and know it will open up doors to other passions in my heart!

b. because I feel a deep level of peace and knowing that God is so good, and he's such a good leader and will guide to me exactly where I should be in any given season in life.

and, finally...

c. I am very happy to be staying near my family. I love them so much; and they have become the biggest support system in my life, along with some close friends God has blessed me with since I've lived in Henderson, and I am so happy to remain with them a while longer.

I'm just happy, and very excited!! I feel like a little kid getting ready for the first day of school, like; yay!! New pens, notebooks and a backpack!! [Haha, I know, I am a nerd!] And on top of all that,  I just found out I need glasses, which will add to causing me to feel more studious!! ;)

Soo...let the studying begin!!

The Battle is Raging...

I'm not really one of those people who think they know when the world is going to end, or to claim to know when Jesus is coming back either...but I do know that we're in a war right here, and right now; regardless of any understanding beyond that. There's a war for the souls of mankind at all moments. I know the time has come where people need to choose whose side they're really on. That thin line is being drawn, and it's not one that you can straddle. You know? I think in seasons past there were things that were permissible, even though they didn't lead to the fullness of true life. But it seems like now, you're either all for bad or all for good. People are choosing; knowingly or unknowingly.

The decision is being made in the hearts & minds of people on a daily basis; as they go about their days choosing the way that they want to live. Choosing the standard that they're going to set for themselves, and choosing whether to pursue righteousness or the ambitions of mans' heart. It's a really big deal too; because it's not like we have forever. Like I said before, I'm not one to claim I know anything about the end of the world, other than what I read in the Bible [in which it clearly states, NO man knows the hour of the second coming, not even Jesus Himself] but I do know that each day we live, we are getting closer to our end, maybe not the end of time...but just a life span. And not in a morbid way, life and death happen and it's natural and how we are made...but it's the assurance of knowing where we're going when that happens for us is what we can change and do have control over.

The weapons we fight with are not of this world, but they are powerful for the demolishing of strongholds. [my own interpretation!]2Cor.10:4

It's time to choose. The battle is raging, I don't want to be sleeping...

3x5

You know how when you listen to a certain song or album enough within a season--you begin to associate that song with that time frame when you hear it again at a different time, or even a few years later? I do that a lot.

Not many people understand me when I say I like John Mayer--what I think I really mean is I only truly like one of his albums...

I listened to this album constantly [no joke] during a fabulous trip my sister Michelle & I took to Oaxaca, Mexico. We left Valentines Day of 2007 and embarked on one of the BEST memories I now have made in my life. We spent a month on a missions base-- helping out in whatever way we could, taking weekend trips to the mountains so Shell and the other medical people could aid the people in that way [while I ran to the taco stands so they could all eat! ;)], made CPR posters...and lots of other stuff. Now, don't get the wrong idea; we definitely helped out a lot...but a majority [respectable amount!] of each day was spent on the beach which was 20 feet from our guest house suite [which was air conditioned and amazing]....sooooo. It's not like we were roughing it too much. ;)

That trip was a time of such extreme peace for me. It's not like I even had all this chaos or clamour in my life that needed to be resolved...but when you get so far removed from your element, it does something to you--a really good something. You forget about the stuff that doesn't really matter and begin to put life in perspective. It's refreshing. So as we treked though Mexico on the Mecro, on our journey for 8 hours up a mountain to a remote village, or just sitting out on the beach for 7 hours straight--I had this album playing. As if I were mentally logging away the sweet moments of peace I took in on my pilgrimage; through the songs. Each perfect melody sung was engraving in my mind the perfect picture I was taking in. Proving further to me how amazing my Lord is; and how He only makes breathtaking things.

There are some moments when not many things can bring my heart instant joy; and there are those precious few things that can do that every single time. The song 3x5 is one of the things that does it every time. When I listen to it I can literally almost taste the beauty and the peace of the moments when it first got lodged away in my brain.

I was listening to this song as I saw this epic-ness ->

We were on our way back to the missions base from a village we had spent a week in. And I don't care that it's not a Christian song; but my heart, soul and spirit was so moved by the combination of it and God's perfection. I'm so thankful for the lovely moments like these that God has poured out over my life. I feel so blessed to have had experiences like this one--and to even have so many more. With me, there's always that moment where God engraves something so deeply on my spirit where no time can separate me from the effect of it. It goes so deep. So deep that there sometimes aren't even words to do it justice--but just that internal knowing that God just etched eternity on my heart in a little way; and that I should never let go of it.

I have a lot to be thankful for.

Happy Thanksgiving [a little late!!] & don't forget to just breathe in the moments and memories you're making today. Life is beautiful!

Vag·a·bond [Vag-uh-bond]

–adjective  

[wandering from place to place without any settled home; nomadic: a vagabond tribe.]

[leading an unsettled or carefree life.]

[having an uncertain or irregular course or direction: a vagabond voyage.]

I had an amazing experience today. I was sitting on my couch, drinking my frozen chai,  facebooking it up, and thinking about life. My life. What I wanted to do with it. And why I am not there yet...etc. So, all of a sudden it came upon me; "Google" is good for so many things!! Therefore, clearly I came to the conclusion...I shall google it!! [I realize this sounds a little ridiculous, but I tell you...God speaks through strange things sometimes!] ...Then I did it. I typed "what should I do with my life" into the little search engine thingy...and I somewhat skeptically clicked on the first result, thinking I was being silly even doing this! And this is what I found... [It's like 6 pages long...soo, just so you're warned!]

What Should I Do With My Life?

The URL had a 66 in it, so I hoped that wasn't a bad sign...[haha] then I remembered I didn't believe in superstition; and fearlessly continued on! And what I found was one of the most down to earth, no nonsense, legitimate articles I have read in quite some time. I liken the profoundness [if that's even a word!] to what I felt as I was reading the book "Just Do Something". I was truly inspired!

My inspiration led me out to my hammock in the back yard, pen and paper in hand...to write down "What do I love?" and/or "What have I done already that I have loved?". Because one of the main points this man makes in his article is that a lot of people haven't really even truly asked themselves these questions and we live in a place where we're free to do basically anything our hearts desire...and why not take that and run with it? I mean, so long as it in honoring God and He's not saying don't do it!

My list of "What do I love?" seemed pretty simple, and basic, I guess since I am me, and I know what I love; and it consisted of; people, relationships, God, my family, friends, communicating through writing, traveling, foreign cultures, helping people, sozo, love, photography, warm weather, being tan, creativity, being who I am made to be...and a few other things. So after writing my list, and journaling and talking it over with the Lord a little more, I realized I want to be vagabond, with an indispensable monetary fund :) Orr...to simply marry a very very rich, handsome, man of God, and do whatever my heart desires from there! ;) [haha I'm mostly kidding about that last part, I mean a millionaire would be great--but no requirement!]

All of this to say--it was a very enlightening afternoon, and I had the best time sitting out in this amazing 70 degree day, chilling out with God and just dreaming with Him. I am very excited about life, and soo excited to see where this journey that God has me on leads to.

The Kingdom of Heaven is like a [money] Tree.

The Money Tree.

Did you watch the link up there?! You kind of have to if you want any of this post to make sense. [just so you know!]

My pastor [Tooty!] showed this video this morning at church and I found it to be quite profound. There was a free gift placed before each and every person that walked by that tree. Some people simply looked and moved on, other laughed shook their heads and moved on, some stopped and read the message and walked away...others walked right on by with out even noticing the money was there for the taking. Thus I liken this here "money tree" to the Kingdom of Heaven, like I suggested in my little notes' title. I feel as though the in the same manner that some people treated this tree filled with $100 of cash...they treat the Kingdom of Heaven.

I don't really think I have anything too profound to say currently. Other than that I felt a revelation as I watched this clip today. I want to be starving for the things of God. This is easily one of my favorite quotes from a sermon that John G. Lake delivered in his day;

Blessed is he who regards the interests of the Kingdom of Heaven as paramount to every other interest in the world, paramount to his own personal interests. Blessed is he whose interest in life, whose interest in the world is only used to extend the interest of the Kingdom of Heaven. Blessed is he who has lost his own identity as an individual and has become a citizen of the Kingdom of Heaven. blessed is he who sees the Kingdom of Heaven as the ultimate, to be possessed. --John G. Lake

Let's not miss the simplicity of loving Jesus & the recieving of His free gift of life. And let's not grow weary, but let the fire burn within [and out] for all to see and know who our God is.

The [Honor] Ring...

Let me begin by giving you a little background info;

Straight out of High School, I packed up my bags and hit the road! Sixteen [felt more like a million!!] hours later I arrived at my new home for the year; Garden Valley, Texas. Yes, Texas. An interesting place, with interesting inhabitants! I was finally at Teen Mania Ministries about to undergo my new adventure at their internship called, "The Honor Academy"! I had known since I was in grade 9 I wanted to go to The Honor Academy after High School. It wasn't even a question in my mind. At this point, all of my siblings have gone there actually [and no, our parents didn't make us!]. It was such a pivotal year in my life. I looking back on that year somewhat remorsefully, however, at this point knowing how much more I could have put into it...but hey, let's not live in the past! All in all, it was a life changing year! Upon graduation of this internship we got this!!

The Honor Ring! [Well, not this one exactly, because, you see...I lost the one they gave me somewhere along the way....and got this new one  yesterday!]

The point of this ring though was to symbolize the "brotherhood", "sisterhood"....uh...community of believers that you had just journeyed on with through the past year of your life; and also joining you with all the others who had gone before us, or who were to come after; and by taking this ring you were saying, my house, my heart, my life is open to my Honor Academy family at all times...like some massive networking system [kind of how the Body of Christ is supposed to be anyways!] We had this Ring Banquet when they gave us all the rings and we all in unison said this pledge [I know, sounds a little sketchy!! Haha!], and then got to proudly were our Honor Rings.

Here's the thing though; I don't think I ever took all of this that seriously until I began thinking about it in recent weeks. One of the main things we were taught at this academy was honor [hence, The Honor Academy.] The thing that began my thought process on all of this recently was a sermon I heard a few weeks ago about honor. How we need to honor our forefathers, honor our parents, honor our pastors, honor fellow brothers and sisters...and to esteem them more highly than we do ourselves. It was refreshing to hear such a relevant and impacting teaching, in a body of Christ were I don't think many people truly understand the concept of Honor, or how to operate in it. Then I began thinking of all of the things I learned my year in Texas, and everything I have learned since; and began feeling a certain level of ownership over this whole situation, because you're responsible for what you know. I am responsible to be an example of a God fearing, righteous, honorable young lady...because I know that I should be. I then began to feel distressed knowing I had so carelessly misplaced the ring I had originally been given; thus frantically contacting Teen Mania by way of calling the Guard Booth repeatedly until I heard back from someone!

Now that I think about it I am glad I lost the first ring, and then have been able to go through this whole thought process now...and come to a deeper and more meaningful understanding that perhaps I would not have come to otherwise. I look at this new ring now though, and honor  Teen Mania for the vision of excellence and Godly character that they [and my parents before then!] had instilled so strongly in me. However, I wear this ring now reminding myself of the sole fact that this is how the body of Christ is to function, not just my Teen Mania comrades. I want to love, respect and value each individual I come across, and be open to them regardless of anything; and to show them honor. I want to show this to all people, not even  just followers of The Way.

All in all. I am very thankful for and honor the heritage my parents have began for my siblings and I and our future families, I am thankful for my year in Texas, and I am even more thankful for everything that has come since then, teaching me yet more invaluable lessons in my character and in living for my beautiful Lord.

Girly girl!

I just want to say that I love being a girl!! When I get to have a pedicure, manicure, massage at at spa, people playing with my hair...really anything where I'm getting pampered, it's a good day for me :)
I love beauty! I love embracing the joyous fact that God made me a lady!

I think there is a process though of growing into being comfortable in your own skin though. You know? Like really becoming the most beautiful version of you, and loving it with a confidence. Some women are afraid of beauty, they're afraid to be noticed for one reason or another. I can relate though, completely. I remember numerous times when there was a formal, banquet or whatever at which all the girls had an excuse to get completely decked out and looking fabulous; my resounding thought process and state of emotions would be, "Gosh, I am so uncomfortable." [Not because of wearing a dress and heels, and not because I am more comfortable in my AE Jeans, hoodie and flip flops any day either!!] It was because I was afraid to be noticed, afraid to be seen as lovely and beautiful...for some ominous reason. Thus whatever grace and poise I could have walked in those evenings, was not the first thing on my mind. I was not looking to be the Cinderella of the night, I was just hoping that a cute boy wouldn't ask me to dance; causing me to be 75% more awkward than I already felt. [Haha!] Granted, of course I wanted Prince Charming to come along and sweep me off my feet, but there was a deeper emotion running through my heart that rang more true in those moments. The fear that I was not really what Mr. Charming wanted. I was not pretty enough, or skinny enough, or cool  enough...the list could go on; and does go on in many young ladies hearts' and minds' daily.

Bethany Dillon wrote a song and the chorus goes like this,

"Gaze into my eyes And let me know you'd fight thousands, for my love...Slip your hand in mine, ask me to dance with you tonight-- just ask me for my love"

It's such a bold statement. So confidant. And I know that it touches a deep chord inside of most women I know. It's the perfect ending to all our fairy tale dreams.

I know this above a lot of things. I was made for love; and so were you. There's a deep heart cry in each person to experience love at it's richest and deepest moments, for ladies and gentlemen. God put that desire there, undoubtedly. And one thing I've learned that goes so deep is you can't really even love wholly, until you've learned to be loved...and until you've learned to love yourself! Not in a conceited way, but in a manner of understanding God created YOU. Which a. means He likes you how you are & b. means He did it that way on purpose, and He makes good- no, great things. Once you embrace that; you are ready to embark on the journey of truly loving others, selflessly; the way that love was made to be given.

I can't wait to have this full understanding. I feel far most days; sometimes inching closer, but I always know that,

      "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised."

And that really is the ultimate goal. I know that some people think I am very beautiful, and I am aware that others may not find me as [outwardly] beautiful as I might hope. But that's just life and it's just the journey we all go on. I believe I am saying alllll of this to say...when you know your value and worth and beauty in the eyes of our Lord and Saviour; it instills a confidence that the worst day ever [broke a nail, realized you've gained 3 lbs, found out your dream guy likes someone else not you, whatever it may be] couldn't shake.  And it's very cool to not be shaken because you know no matter what God has totally got this whole thing covered, and there really is nothing to fear.

There are no words...

On October 5, 2010 my sweet friends' the Ausdemore's lost a precious member of their family. Luke went home to be with Jesus that night. This family is so amazing, and I am so blessed to have them in my life. My heart is broken with them during this time, and I pray that Jesus comforts them so deeply and tangibly in these coming weeks. We know that Luke is with Jesus this very minute, but our hearts grieve at the loss of a loved one. And I know that there are no words to ease the passing of such a beloved son & brother, but Lord I just lift this family up to you right now...

God be with the Ausdemore's right now. Wrap your loving arms around them in these painful and confusing times. We love you Lord and we trust in your plan over each of our lives, and I pray that we are even more deeply made aware that we need to live like we don't have tomorrow. And that people die every day not knowing our Saviour...and they need to know Him. Thank you that Luke knew you, and that he lived his life for you God.

Bless this dear, sweet family Jesus. Bless them deeply with your presence right now.

It's time to be faithful!

The consistent theme of my church-going today was the parable in Luke 19, when this guy of noble birth gave a few servants some [minas] old school money, and said to them, "Here, I'm giving you this, now, go and put this money to work until I come back." The Nobleman returns and each servant had done something with the minas; from gaining far more than they'd originally been given, to hiding their minas away because for fear they wouldn't succeed at the task; therefore, not even trying. The Nobleman then rewarded each according to their work for him, the faithful ones gaining great authority and reward; and the unfaithful one being scolded and having the mina he had possession of taken away and given to a faithful one.

What I am gathering from all of this is this; God has given each of us a very specific set of gifts, skills, talents, etc. to use to expand the Kingdom of Heaven. The choice to invest in these things is completely up to us though. The more that we would sow into each thing, the more we would get a return on...so to say. It makes perfect sense actually; and this parable is so clearly parralleling our lives in Christ. I want to invest and take risks on things God has given me, to expand the Kingdom of Heaven. It's time to be faithful. It's time to begin getting returns on all that we're pouring out our lives over in all of this, and not because we want a return, but because we hunger to pour out all we are for the sake of God's name. We need to get hungry for the things of Heaven and begin pulling them down here on earth, and living like we mean it.

Blessed is he who regards the interests of the Kingdom of Heaven as paramount to every other interest in the world, paramount to his own personal interests. Blessed is he whose interest in life, whose interest in the world is only used to extend the interest of the Kingdom of Heaven. Blessed is he who has lost his own identity as an individual and has become a citizen of the Kingdom of Heaven. blessed is he who sees the Kingdom of Heaven as the ultimate, to be possessed. --John G. Lake

It's time to get hungry and it's time to be faithful with what God has already given us to work with.

Just Do Something!!

Breaking news!! I just found the book that explains the every thought process I have muddled through in the last couple years of my life! "Tinkerers". That's what they call people [like me] who are prone to certain ridiculous understandable thought processes about the future, and the "will of God" in ones life; which have been quite misleading to many people who love the Lord and want His will in their lives. The content was so interesting as I was devouring the pages of this tiny but profound book. I feel as though many people have been taught to over-spiritualize so many things in our lives, myself included! This book so blatantly pointed out the many flaws of this type of thinking; and I think this Mr. Kevin DeYoung is right! Not only do I think he is right, I think he's ingenious for putting all these inspiring revelations in one, tiny, pocket sized bundle of wisdom!

He addresses so many issues straight to the point, points that I am positive many 20-something year old persons have gone through in their heads when they're at a crossroads in life. I think the most profound thing I've read yet [I'm only 1/2 way through it!] is, many young people are so desperate to do the will of God that it immobilizes any action that they may take, because of fearing that they're doing the wrong thing, or being worried they'll be tied down to something that they don't really want, or...worse, that they'll be stepping out of the "will of God". All pretty valid concerns, however, not so much trusting in Gods' sovereignty over our lives. I think that God has created each person so different and unique and placed such diverse desires and callings over each of our lives; and if one's heart is submitted to God, and listening to the God given desires in one's heart [along as they're Godly!!], there's nothing to fear. In the book He says, "God doesn't take risks, so we can." And I think by that he meant, don't be afraid to just do something, and trust that God is big enough to handle your life. I mean He did plan every day of it before you were even born. We don't need to be immobilized. We need to be free people. Free to love and live and pursue the dreams God has placed in our hearts. I'm definitely choosing this way to live my life! It's going to be an amazing adventure. It already has been.

Girl Meets World

I always find myself impatiently wishing I were 5, 7 or 10 years down the road in life. There are so many things that I just wish I knew the answer to or could see how it all turned out. I know it's silly. I never wish I knew all the answers immediately though, because then I am aware that it would take all of the adventure out of the pilgrimage. And even though I don't want to know everything now, I still want to know where I am going! I just don't want to take all of the fun out of it!

I liken it to my favorite show in the world, "Boy Meets World". It's really quite a beautiful little world that the writers of that show created. These three friends that go through life together, through everything; and they always have Mr. Feeney there to give them epic guidance at any moment!

Once you get to the last episode in Season 7 it all comes to one grand closure. There they are, all together, and they've all decide to venture off into the world like they've always been, together. You feel like you've become part of their lives as you've watched them struggle through life, it's joys & heartbreaks. I mean Cory & Toganga break up like a million times, but at the end you always know everything is going to be alright. So, what am I getting at? I don't even know. I think what it is though, is that life is beautiful. Life is a process; and even though sometimes I wish I had the picture perfect "Boy Meets World" kind of life, I know that what I have is even more beautiful, really. I know I don't have some awesome writers in Hollywood writing the script for my life [thank God!!!] as to assure a wonderful ending; but this I do have;

Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
      you formed me in my mother's womb.
   I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking!
      Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
      I worship in adoration—what a creation!
   You know me inside and out,
      you know every bone in my body;
   You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
      how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
   Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
      all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
   The days of my life all prepared
      before I'd even lived one day.  [psalm 139:13]

and...on top of that I am promised this;

      I'll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home.
         I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you,
     not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. [jeremiah 29:11]

Therefore, whenever my heart begins to grow weary or impatient, it is refreshing when I simply remind myself of the truth spoken over my life; when I remind myself to let go & trust in the one who cares more about my life than I even do. When I remember that. I can truly just rest.

Eat those fruits & veggies!

Did you know that...

today, health care professionals know more than ever about the relationship between good nutrition and good health. In simplest terms, healthy eating is about getting back to basics - by following the latest USDA guidelines at http://www.mypyramid.gov/.
Eating the recommended 7-13 servings of fruits and vegetables every day is the best way to get the whole food nutrition you need to stay healthy. But healthy eating takes time and planning - and can cost a lot of money - and with today's busy lifestyles it's easy to miss out on the nutrients you need. That's why adding Juice Plus+ to your diet is an important step for you and every member of your family. It's a simple, affordable way to fuel your body with good nutrition.
[taken from http://www.juiceplusfacts.com/]

Hey, it's me now!! You know my last whole post about goals [yada, yada, yada!!]...I think I have found it!
That perfect second job and won't completely strangle my already dismal vibrant and exciting social life!! In fact, this job is so great, that part of it would consist of  simply mingling with people!! [How exciting!!]

Here's the deal. My Mom & my Aunt have been selling this product called "Juice Plus" for a while now. And they're fanatics! I used to just look at them in bewilderment and came to the conclusion that they had just lost it. Buuuuut. Today I went to Louisville, KY with my Mom and some friends to a Business Presentation of this little [actually quite booming] Nutritional Industry. The moment I heard them say, "Wellness is the next trillion dollar industry!" I knew I had come to the right place; and now  I dwell among the "fanatics" that I so recently scoffed at! 

Really though. It's an amazing product. And let's face it, we all need as much help as we can get eating healthy and living good lifestyles with all the business around us. I'll admit that I don't think this is the "fix-all" kind of solution that some may try to make it out to be; but I absolutely think it is a very beneficial step in the right direction. Email me if you want more info!! Even if you don't think health is something you need to think about in this moment of your life, it's time to think again. Today you're building your body for tomorrow. Make today count! :)

Work, work [play?] and more work.

I am interviewing for a second job tomorrow. Uhh...the agony. Two whole jobs?! When will I have time to do...anything?! I mean, I know I could definitely use the extra change in my purse...but really, two jobs?!

Now that I think about it I've had a really posh life. You know- never had to work two jobs, always had my parents to rely on if I reeaaallly needed something. I've had it easy.
However this morning I woke up with a resolve I have not felt in the past.
I declared publicly [to my brother Jon & my Mom], "I have goals!" To which my brother laughed, and mocked back, "Goals?!".

Yes. I have goals.

I've never really been the 5 year plan kind of person.
I hardly have a plan for my day.
I am seeing fit a time for having goals though, and I believe that time is now! It says there is a season for everything in the Bible, right? So, before was my season to be irresponsible, free spirited, and move where ever the wind may blow me...but, now is the season for direction. For clarity. For dedication to something! For...a slight risk of being bored. But, alas. I shall prevail. And, hopefully come out of this new season more refined, maybe even a little more "grown up". So, I went out and applied for another job today as a sign for all to see. The seriousness of the announcement I had made earlier this day needed to be noted!
And...I knew if I didn't do it today, I'd probably just change my mind by tomorrow! [haha!]

Without a vision, the people perish. Proverbs 29:18

Yes. It's time for vision.
I hope I make it through this!! ;)



It's the most wonerful time of the year! :)

True Life.

God, you bring TRUE life. You're so cool, cuz you're not "religious" & you're not mad at me for anything, you just straight LOVE me & you aren't the way most people say you are...

& since i know that i feel FREE to love you how my heart was designed to & i don't have to feel bad about it. there's no formula & there's no right or wrong way either.

you are love. & if i love you, then i have real love in me.

i am so sick of people trying to put condemnation on hearts that don't need it. i am tired of people talking about "god" or "religion" and they don't even know the One who truly loves them and saved them and who died for them. They know this image they have built up in their minds and they base their relationship with the real God off of that image. it makes for a really whacked out religion and it is based on a lie.

God i want to know you, i want to know truth. to know who you really are,
not who people just say you are.

 i want your word in ME and i want the truth of your word in me, not just what my mind perceives of what i am reading. all i want is what is REAL.

i want to throw all the other crap out of the door and out of my mind because all i want is YOU and all i want is the TRUTH. and if that TRUTH is found in me laying down my life and simply LOVING the people who you put in my life or if that truth is found in me laying out in my back yard on my hammock gazing at the stars just thinking of how amazing you are, then that is what i want to do!

i just want YOU!!

i am tired of who people have made you and i am sick of satan using that lie against your children...and i am not going to hold it back and deny giving that truth to others! and we're all going to know who we are and we're going to be free thru the name of Jesus....no more bondage, no more lies.

i literally refuse to settle for any less now. and nothing is going to stop me. cuz God is bigger than the boogie man, he's bigger than godzilla or the monsters on TV... ;)

so, if my GOD  is for me that who can EVER stop me? absolutely no one.

we are going to begin living free. and i am starting now! who want's to come?! ;)

How exciting!

This may seem a little silly, but I am so excited to have a blog of my own!! I'm not necessarily doing this to get a "following" or anything, but more as a creative outlet for me. I've always written stuff, all my life. Whenever there was something I wanted to communicate and couldn't really find the words, the second my pen hit my journal it all came pouring out! This leads me to believe I am meant to write, something...at least. And I follow a few blogs and am so amused and inspired by some of them, and just hope I'm able to eventually find my "sweet spot" for writing.
Therefore, this is my first attempt aside from a few "notes" I've written on facebook to improve in this interest of mine! I guess we'll see how this goes! (I'm glad there is spell check on here!) I mean, see ya next time! :)