I used to feel like blogging was something I did to pass the time when I didn't have as much going on in my life; and now that life has become full of so many things--I miss it!! Writing is something I enjoy doing when I feel like I have something at least somewhat useful to say :)
But life---Ohhh life. It is something that passes us by far too quickly when we don't take every moment and use it to the fullest. I have noticed an increasing tendency for my days and weeks to just fly by, filled with work, school, friends and just life...and a month will go by and I won't even know where the time went. I think sometimes I get so caught up in what is to come in my life (like--5 years from now) that I just try to hurry through and fast forward the
now in my life to get to the part that I am really excited for. But living this way makes me afraid that I am missing out on so much, on all the little things that could mean so much today.
I get caught up in thinking about all the things I need to take care of in life, from finances to relationships, to finishing my degree then finding a real job in the field I feel called to be in--and it becomes such a whirlwind. It really just makes me want to curl up in a little ball on my bed and cry- then fall asleep. And hopefully when I would wake up have more clarity and peace about the future.
But in church today- my Pastor was so strong on emphasizing the fact that Jesus is the answer to everything!!! He is the ANSWER! He is the cornerstone on which I need to make a priority to build my life upon! I know beyond a shadow of doubt that I will not have success in my life, relationships, career family---anything---unless it is my priority to make Christ the cornerstone, the solid foundation for this life. And that is my heart---it is so deeply in my heart to make that what my life is all about. It stresses me out when I am not sure if every single thing in my life is exactly how Jesus would want it to be, but then He just teaches me to rest in Him and trust the process of life and how He continually unfolds things before our eyes and works all things together for my good. I am so thankful for my wonderful Savior. I'm thankful for those in my life who remind me to put Him first, and to trust in His plan and process and encourage me on in those things.
So--I think that's about all for now! :) Maybe I won't wait 5 months to blog again this time!
Blessings to you all!! Happy December!!
