....So, what now?

Alright.

So this has been an interesting couple of weeks for me. Certain things happened/stuff was said which caused me to want to reflect upon my life and so some soul searching (so to say...) and the conclusions that were reached were super interesting....

I have no clue what I really want to do with my life.

Yep. It's true.

At first I was pretty alarmed at this realization...Then I concluded that many people my age (or around it) feel the exact same way. I mean, granted, I always seem to find myself around a lot of people who have these epic visions for their lives, awesome plans and like every step basically mapped out...  But, I guess I'm just not that kind of person. Not that having life all sorted before it happens wouldn't be nice in certain situations, cuz, really, it probably would rock.

I think the consensus I came to though was this....

I know that God has plans for me. I know that He has really carefully considered my life, and who I am (the gifts He gave me, the desires in my heart, the things I love and don't love as much), and since He has taken these things into consideration...I feel pretty free to do whatever comes my way, as long as it's honoring Him. I know that He will work everything out in the perfect way and time, and I truly hold firmly to the belief that God wants us to have fun! He wants us to pursue the things that make our hearts come alive...so, once I figure out exactly what those things are, I'm set :)

All in all...awesome couple weeks. I can't wait to see the rest of life unfold. I know it's going to rock!

Epicness!

Some awesome guys I've known for a while now are most likely going to be famous pretty soon! ;)
They're such awesome men of God, and so talented and I know they're being used in so many ways to change this world!!

But anyhow!! Here is their song "Redemption"!! Listen!!! It's super good!! 

Tim & Nate's Song!!!

Cheers!

4$

Yeah. That's right. FOUR dollars.

That's the amount of money I have left from my paycheck after paying bills and stuff. 

UGHHH. 

I've gotta get a money tree- or something. 

Dave Hasz is Leaving?! :(

A few days ago I found out some sad news! And by sad I mean, this will be a great loss to Teen Mania and The Honor Academy, but I know God is leading these people on to what He has next in their lives!

But Dave Hasz, the amazing director of The Honor Academy is transitioning out of that leadership position! :(

I was an Intern at the HA from 2004-2005, and this man is so incredible. His dedication to the Lord, to excellence and to sweeping the idols out of young peoples' lives is just remarkable. I know his presence and leadership abilities will be missed by the TM family.

Here's a little more info on his departure from his blog! [click below!]

Dave's Blog!

Mr. Hasz, you're amazing!! God bless you in this next season He is leading you and your family into! Also, I vote you continue to blog :)

catch me [if you can]

Last night I watch this movie with a friend! Movies like this [oddly enough] seem to inspire within me the desire to try to get away with some epic scheme....haha!

Clearly, I would never really follow through with it, because I value my life and would prefer to not spend it in prison.

At one point in the movie though, towards the end...Hanks' character is following DiCaprio through an airport as he's trying to run one last time...[which, at that point to the audience seems absurd, because he has just been pardoned from his massive sentence to prison, and offered a job at the FBI]...yet, he continues to run.

And Hanks' leaves him with a statement something like- I'm goning to let you run this time- you know, after a while it is easier to live a lie. But, nobody is chasing you Frank, nobody is chasing you.

Sometimes I feel like we play this little "catch me if you can" game with God. That sometimes, it's just easier settling for what we've become because of the convenience or luxury of life after those choices. And all the while, God is after our hearts, He is chasing us down, and wants us to understand the gravity of the choices we make, and ultimately just wants us with Him and to be safe. [Altho in the movie, I am sure there were other things the FBI wanted! Haha!]

But it's like after running from Him for so long, each time He's getting closer, and just about to really get to the bottom of what's going on in us, we've already moved on to the next facade for our lives.

I'm not trying to draw crazy over-spiritualized parallels from this movie to our walks with God, but as I was just sitting here thinking about that statement, "It's easier to live a lie" & it just keeps ringing true. I guess in our cases, the truth of our lives lie in Christ. That truth lies in the finished work of the cross, all we are or hope to ever become lies in that truth of who He is. And, the lie [that we can settle for second rate, we don't have to uphold the standards of purity & excellence for the name of Christ] sometimes is easier to live. Just being real.

In this movie, when Frank [DiCaprio] was in deep with his defrauding the government, he was loaded!! He had everything he thought he could have ever wanted!! But, every Christmas he'd call Hanks'...he was ultimately unsatisfied with what he had become, he was sick of living a lie. He just didn't know any other way since he had gotten so deep in it.

The same goes for us. The lie is easier maybe in ways. But I am positive it will leave a gaping hole in our hearts. We were made with something to live for, for something to die for, God is that something. This is it. To live, breathe and die for this Love.

Ultimately, it is time for us to just let Him catch us.
No more running. No more hiding.
We are children of the light.