Monday, January 30, 2012

Time for a REAL job!

Lately For the last 5 years, I've been SO over the jobs that I have had.

Coffee Shops.
Home Improvement Stores.
Mexican Grills.
Craft Stores.
Restaurant Jobs.
(...I could go on...sadly.)

Not that each job didn't have its own little charm and/or great experiences along the way, because, most of them did. HOWEVER...

I am impatiently excitedly awaiting the moment I graduate (in a few years!!) so I am able to apply for a real job!

I don't regret the path I have taken, as in, waiting until I was 24 to begin college, because I know that I gained a lot of valuable lessons internally along the way. It is just in moments like these, where I await my shift at work, and think...

I WISH I HAD A REAL JOB!!!

I'll get over it. Well, more like I will persevere! I know I will get there one day. Right now I just need to focus, and work towards that degree.












And who knows, maybe even mix up the whole College experience in a few semesters ;)

We'll just have to wait & see.

oxox

Friday, January 27, 2012

Spiritual Hunger

Hey everyone, this is a sermon by a man named John G. Lake. It is amazing, and I wanted to share it on here. There was a disclaimer in this book of sermons that I have, but I couldn't find it...but I wanted to say it in a paraphrased way. In Lake's sermons he speaks of his African American brothers, but in the language of his day, saying Negro wasn't disrespectful. So I just wanted to state that he had the utmost respect and love for his African American brothers and sisters.

Anyhow, this is quite long, but I think if you can get through it, you won't be sorry :)
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Spiritual Hunger
Sermon given: December 11, 1924
Portland, Oregon
By: John G. Lake

The text tonight is: Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. Matthew 5:6

Hunger is a mighty good thing. It is the greatest persuader I know of. It is a marvelous mover. Nations have learned that you can do most anything with people until they get hungry. But when they get hungry you want to watch out. There is a certain spirit of desperation that accompanies hunger.

I wish we all had it spiritually. I wish to God we were desperately hungry. Wouldn't it be glorious? Somebody would get filled before this meeting is over. It would be a strange thing if we were all desperately hungry for God got only one or two got filled in a service.

Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness.

Righteousness is just the rightness of God- the rightness of God in your spirit; the rightness of God in your soul; the rightness of God in your body; the rightness of God in your affairs, in your home, in your business, everywhere.

God is an all-around God. His power operated from every side. The artists put a halo around the head of Jesus to show that there is a radiation of glory in His person. They might just as well put it around His feet or any part of His person. It is the radiant glory of the indwelling God, radiating out through the personality.
There is nothing more wonderful than the indwelling of God in the human life. The supremest marvel that God ever performed was when he took possession of those who are hungry.

Blessed are they which do hunger.

I will guarantee to you that after the crucifixion of Jesus there was a hundred-and-twenty mighty hungry folks at Jerusalem. I do not believe if they had not been mightily hungry they would have gotten so gloriously filled. It was because they were hungry that they were filled.

We are sometime inclined to think of God as mechanical; as though God set a date for this event or that to occur. But my opinion is that one of the works of the Holy Ghost is that of preparer. He comes and prepares the heart of men in advance by putting a strange hunger for that event that has been promised by God until it comes to pass.

The more I study history and prophecy the more I am convinced that when Jesus was born into the world He was born in answer to a tremendous heart cry on the part of the world. The world needed God desperately. They wanted a manifestation of God tremendously, and Jesus Christ as the Deliverer and Savior came in answer to their soul cry.

Many look forward to the second coming of Jesus- His coming again- as though mechanically, on a certain date, when certain events come to pass, Jesus is going to arrive. I do not see it that way. I see on the other hand that there must be a tremendous hunger, an overwhelming hunger, for the Lord's coming in the hearts of men, so that a prayer such as was never prayed in the world before for Christ to come will rise to heaven. And, bless God, when it rises to heaven on the part of sufficient souls, it will take Jesus Christ himself off the throne and bring Him down to earth.

Daniel says that he was convinced by the study of the books of prophecy, especially that of Jeremiah, that the time had come when they ought to be delivered from captivity in Babylon. The seventy years was fulfilled but there was no deliverance. So he diligently set his face to pray it into being (Daniel 9).

Here is what I want you to get. If it was going to come to pass mechanically, by a certain date, there would not have been any necessity for Daniel to get that hunger in his soul, so that he fasted and prayed in sackcloth and ashes that deliverance might come.

No sir, God's purposes come to pass when your heart and mine gets the real God cry, and the real God prayer comes into out spirit and, the real God yearning gets our nature. Something is going to happen then. No difference what it may be your soul is coveting or desiring, if it becomes in your life the supreme cry-- not the secondary matter, or third, or the fourth, or fifth or tenth, but the first thing; the supreme desire of your soul, the paramount issue- all the powers and energies of your spirit, of your soul, and of your body are reaching out and crying to God for the answer. It is going to come, it is going to come, it is going to come.

I lived in a family where for thirty-two years they never were without an invalid in the home. Before I was twenty-four years of age we had buried four brothers and four sisters, and four other members of the family were dying, hopeless and helpless invalids. I set up my own home; married a beautiful woman. Our first son arrived. It was only a short time until I saw that same devilish train of sickness that followed my father's family had come into mine. My wife became an invalid, my son was a sickly child.

Out of it all one thing developed in my nature- a cry for deliverance. I did not know any more about the subject of healing than an Indian, notwithstanding I was a Methodist evangelist. But my heart was crying for deliverance; my soul had come to the place where I had vomited up dependence on man. My father spent a fourtune on the family, to no avail, as if there was no stoppage to the hell. And let me tell you, there is no human stoppage because the thing settled deep in the nature of man; too deep for any material remedy to get at it. It takes the Almighty God and the Holy Spirit and the Lord Jesus Christ to get down into the depths of man's nature and find the real difficulty that is there and destroy it.

My brother, I want to tell you, if you are a sinner tonight and away from God, your heart is longing and your spirit asking and your soul crying for God's deliverance. He will be on hand to deliver. You will not have to cry very long until you see that the mountains are being moved, and the angel of deliverance will be there.

I finally go to that place where my supreme most cry was for deliverance. Tears were shed for deliverance for three years before the healing of God came to us. I could hear the groans and cried and sobs and feel the wretchedness of our family's soul. My heart cried, my soul sobbed, my spirit wept tears. I did not know enough to call directly on God for it. Isn't it a strange thing that men do not have enough sense enough to have faith in God for all their needs; do not know enough to call directly on God for physical difficulties, as well as spiritual ones? But I did not.

But bless God, one thing matured in my heart-- a real hunger. And the hunger of a man's soul must be satisfied. It must be satisfied. It is a law of God; that law of God is in the depth of the Spirit. God will answer the heart that cries. God will answer the soul that asks. Christ Jesus comes to us with divine assurance and invites us when we are hungry to pray, to believe, to take from the Lord that which our soul covets and our heart asks for.

So one day the Lord of heaven come our way and in a little while the cloud of darkness, that midnight of hell, that curse of death, was lifted and the light of God shone into our life and into our home, just the same as it existed in other men's lives and other men's homes. We learned the truth of Jesus and was able to apply the divine power of God. We were healed of the Lord.

Blessed are they which do hunger.

Brethren, begin to pray to get hungry.

At this point I want to tell you a story. I was out on a snow-shoe trip at St. Marie, Michigan, where they used to have four and five feet of snow. I tramped for thirty miles on my snow shoes. I was tired and weary. I arrived home and found my wife had gone away to visit, so I went over to my sister's home. I found they were also out. I went into the house and began to look for something to eat. I was nearly starved. I found a great big sort of cake that looked like corn bread. It was quite warm and smelled good. I ate it all.

I thought it was awful funny stuff, and it seemed to have lumps in it. I did not just understand the combination, and I was not much of a cool. About the time I had finished it my sister and her husband came in.

She said, "My, you must be awful tired and hungry."
I said, "I was, but I just found a corn cake and ate the whole thing."
She said, "My goodness John, you did not eat that?"
I said, "What was it, Irene?"
"Why that was a kind of cow bread, we grind up cobs and all."

You see it depends on the character and degree of your hunger. Things taste mighty good to a hungry man.

If you wanted to confer a peculiar blessing on men at large, it would not be to give them pie, but to make them hungry, and then everything that came their way, it would taste everlastingly good.

I love to tell this story because it is the story of a hungry man. A short while after, I went to South Africa and God had begun to work very marvelously in the city of Johannesburg. A butcher who lived in the suburbs was advised by his physicians that he had developed such a tubercular state that he might not live more than nine months. He wanted to make provision that his family would be cared for after he was gone, so he bought a farm and undertook to develop it, so that when he died his family would have a means of existence.

One day he received a letter from friends at Johannesburg, telling of the coming of what they spoke of as "the American brethren" and of the wonderful things that were taking place. Of how So-and-so, a terrible drunkard, had been converted; of his niece, who had been an invalid in a wheelchair for five years, had been healed of God. How one of this other relatives had been baptized in the Holy Ghost and speaking in tongues; other friends and neighbors had been baptized and healed, of the powerful change that had come in the community,and all the marvels a vigorous work for God produces.

Dan Von Vuuren took the letter and crawled under an African thorn tree. He spread the matter out before God and began to discuss it with the Lord. He said, "God in heaven, if You could come to Mr. So-and-so, a drunkard and deliver him from his drunkenness, save his soul and put the joy of God in him; if You could come to this niece of mine, save her soul and heal her body and send her out to be a blessing instead of a weight and burden upon her friends; if You could come to So-and-so, so they were baptized in the Holy Ghost and speak in tongues; Lord, if You can do these things in Johannesburg, You can do something for me too."

And he knelt down, put his face to the ground, and cried to God that God would do something for him. And don't forget it, friends, I have a conviction that that morning Don Von Vuuren was so stirred by the reading of that letter that his desire to be made whole got bigger than anything else in his consciousness. His heart reached for God, and bless God, that morning his prayer went through to heaven and God came down into his life. In ten minutes he took all the break he wanted. The pain was gone. The tuberculosis disappeared. He was a whole man.

But that was not all. He not only received a great physical healing, but God had literally come in and taken possession of the man's life until he did not understand himself anymore. In telling me he said, "Brother, a new prayer from heaven is in my spirit. I had prayed for my wife's salvation for eighteen years, but I could never pray through. But that morning I prayed through. It was all done when I got to the house. She stood and looked at me for two minutes, until it dawned in her that I was gloriously healed of God. She never asked a question as to how it took place, but fell on her knees, threw her hands up to heaven, and said, "Pray for me, Dan. For God's sake pray for me. I must find God today," and God came to that soul."

He had eleven children, splendid young folks. The mother and he went to praying inside of a week the whole household of thirteen had been baptized in the Holy Ghost. He went to his brother's farm, told the wonder of what God had done, prayer through and in a little while nineteen families were baptized in the Holy Ghost.

God so filled his life with His glory that one morning God said to him, "Go to Pretoria. I am going to send you to the different members of Parliament." He was admitted into the presence of Premier Louis Botha. Botha told me about it afterward. He said, "Lake, I had known Von Vurren from the time he was a boy. I had known him as reckless, rollicking fellow. But that man come into my office and stood ten feet away from my desk. I looked up, and before he commenced to speak, I began to shake and rattle in my chair. I knelt down. I had to put my head under my desk and cry to God. Why he looked like God; he talked liked God."

He had the majesty of God. He was super-humanly wonderful. Then he went to the office of the Secretary of State, the to the Secretary of the Treasury. Almost the same thing took place in every instance. For eighteen days God kept him going from this one and that one; lawyers, judges, and officials in the land, until every high official knew there was a God and a Christ and a Savior and a baptism of the Holy Spirit, because Don Van Vurren had really hungered after God.

Blessed are they which do hunger.

I was sitting here tonight before the meeting and began reading an old sermon I spoke to a men's club at Spokane, Washington, either years ago, entitled "The Calling of the Soul." In it I observed I recounted the story of the original people who came to the Parham School in 1900 and whom in answer to the cry of their soul God came and baptized them in the Holy Ghost. All the Apostolic Faith Churches and Missions, Assemblies of God, and other movements are the result.

I knew Brother Parham's wife and his sister-in-law, Lillian Thistleweight. She was the woman that brought the light of God for real sanctification to my heart. It was not her preaching or her words. I sat in Fred Bosworth's home one night before a night of preaching the Gospel. I listened to that woman telling of the Lord and His love and sanctifying grace and power and what real holiness was. It was not arguments or logic; it was herself. It was the divine holiness that came from her soul. It was the living Spirit of God that came out of the woman's life.

I went back in the room, as far away as I could get. I was self-satisfied, doing for the world, well in the world, prosperous with all the accomplishments that go with successful business, but that night my heart got so hungry that I fell on my knees, and those who were present will tell you that they never heard anyone pray as I prayed. Bosworth said long afterward, "Lake, there is one instance that I shall always remember in your life; that was the night you prayed in my home until the rafters shook, until God came and sanctified our hearts." All the devils in hell and out of hell could not believe there is not a real sanctified experience in Jesus Christ; when God comes in and makes your heart pure and takes self out of your nature and gives you divine triumph over sin and self, blessed be the name of the Lord!

Blessed are they which do hunger.

Beloved, pray to get hungry.

Getting back to Von Vurren. For several years before I left Africa, he went up and down the land life a burning fire. Everywhere he went sinners were saved and healed. Men and women were baptized in the Holy Ghost, until he set the districts on fire with the power of God; and he is still going.

Here is a point I want to bring to you. As I talked with Lillian Thistleweight, I observed that one supreme thing in that woman's soul was the consciousness of holiness. She said, "Brother, that is what we prayed for, that is what the baptism brought to us."

Later, Brother Parham was preaching in Texas. A colored man came into his meeting, by the name of Seymour. In a hotel in Chicago he related his experience to Brother Tom and myself. I want you to see the hunger in that colored man's soul. He said he was a waiter in a restaurant and preaching to a church of colored people. He knew God as Savior, as the sanctifier. He knew the power of God to heal. But as he listened to Parham he became convicted of a bigger thing- the baptism of the Holy Ghost. He went on to Los Angeles without receiving it, but he said he was determined to preach all of God he knew to the people.

He said, "Brother, before I met Parham, such a hunger to have more of God was in my heart that I prayed for five hours a day for two and a half years. I got to Los Angeles, and when I got there the hunger was not less but more. I prayed, 'God what can I do?' And the Spirit said, 'Pray more.'" He said, "I am praying for five hours a day now. I increased my hours of prayer to seven, and prayed on for a year and a half more. I prayed God to give me what Parham preached, the real Holy Ghost and fire with tongues and love and power of God like the apostles had."

There are better things to be had in spiritual life, but they must be sought out with faith and prayer. I want to tell you God Almighty had put the hunger into that Negro's heart, that when the fire of God came it glorified. I do not believe that any other man in modern times had a more wonderful deluge in his life than God gave to that dear fellow. Brother Seymour preached to my congregation, to ten thousand people, when the glory and power of God was upon his preaching when men shook and trembled and cried to God. God was in him.

Blessed are they which do hunger for they shall be filled.

I wonder, what we are hungering for? Have we a real divine hunger, something our heart is asking for? If you have, God will answer. God will answer. By every law of the Spirit that men know, the answer is due to come. It will come! Bless God, it will come. It will come in more ways than you ever dreamed of. God is not given to manifesting Himself in tongues and interpretation alone. His life in man is rounded.

When I was a lad, I accompanied my father on a visit to the office of John A. McCall, the great insurance man. We were taken to McCall's office in his private elevator. It was the first time I had ever been in a great office building and ridden in an elevator, and I remember holding my breath until the thing stopped. Then we went into his office, the most beautiful office I had ever beheld. The rugs were so thick I was I was afraid I would go through the floor when I stepped on them. His desk was a marvel, pure mahogany, and on the top of his desk, inlaid in mother of pearl was his name, written in script. It was so magnificent, that in my boyish attitude, I said, "I am going to have an office just like this and a desk like that with my name on it when I am a man."

I did not know how much of an asking it was in my nature, and i t seemed sometimes my desire had drifted away until I was in my thirtieth year. I was invited to come to Chicago to join an association of men who were establishing a life insurance association. They said, "Lake, we want you to manage this association." We dickered about the matter for three weeks until they came to my terms, and finally the president said, "Step into this office until we show you something. We have a surprise for you." And I stepped into an office just exactly the duplicate of John McCall's office, and there in the center was a desk of pure mahogany and instead of the name of John A. McCall it was John G. Lake, in mother of pearl. I had never spoken of that soul desire to a person in the world.

Friends, there is something in the call of the soul that is creative. It brings things to pass. Don't you know that when the supreme desire of your heart is to know God, that all the spiritual energy of your nature and the powers of God given to you begin to concentrate and work alone that certain line and form, and there comes by the unconscious creative exercise of faith into being that our soul calls for. That is the creative action of faith, you and God together, evidencing the power of creative desire.

INTERPRETATION OF TONGUES: Mrs.James Wilson--Brother Myreen

You shall receive the desire of your hear if you come before Me in prater and supplication, for I am a God that answers My children. Go ye forward in the battle for I shall be with you and fulfill the desire of your heart. Yea, pray that ye may become hungry.

Call and I shall answer, for I am a God that hears. I shall answer your call. Be diligent before Me, and pray, yea, be ye in prayer and supplication, for you are living in the last days, and My Spirit shall not always strive with men. But ye who humble yourselves before Me will know I shall be your God, I shall strengthen you on the right hand and on the left, and ye shall understand and know that I am your living God.

As Moses stood at the Red Sea he tried to back out of that relationship God was establishing and tried to throw the responsibility back on God. HE was overwhelmed. It was too marvelous. Surely God mist not have meant it, but God knew. When he began to recognize himself as an individual and God as another it was offensive to God. He thought he could back up and pray for God to do something for him the same as God did in the old relationship. He could not do it. When he got down to pray, in the mind of God the idea of Moses not backing water and getting out of that close place, that inner relationship, that divine symphony of Moses' soul and God's, it was offensive to him. And God said,

Wherefore criest thou unto me?

In other words, shut up your praying. Get up out of there.

Lift thou up thy rod, and stretch out thine hand over the sea, and divide it. --Exodus 14:15-16

God did not say, "Moses, you stretch forth your hand, and I will divide the sea." But He said,

Stretch out thine hand over the sea, and divide it.

You and I are one, stretch forth your hand and divide the sea. You have there is of Me and I have all there is of you. We are one and indivisible. God and man becomes one. The heart of man, the mind of man, the soul of man enters into God, God into him. The divine fires of the eternal Christ, by the Holy Ghost, come from heaven, and the lightnings of Jesus flash through the life, bless God, and the powers of Christ invigorate and manifest and demonstrate through that relationship.

God revealed that to my soul in the says when I first when to Africa, within six weeks after my feet touched the soil, and before God had given me a white church to preach in. I said, "Lord, when You give me a church in which to preach this Gospel, I will preach the highest and holiest thing God's Spirit reveals to my heart. I do not care if anybody else believes it or sees it; I am going to preach the vision the Son of God puts in my soul."

Bless God, He put the high vision of the glorified Christ and the glorified Christian- not a man simply saved from sin, but a man saved from sins, sanctified by power, infilled with His Spirit, recreated with and in Jesus Christ- on in nature, character, and substance. My heart began to preach it, and my mouth gave the message and my soul sent forth the word, and my spirit called such that wanted to be the character of man to come to the feet of the Son of God and receive His blessing and receive His power. And, beloved, I tell you that in all the modern world there was another hundred and twenty-five preachers who went out of a church to proclaim the power of God with greater power than that first hundred and twenty-five preachers. The thing that was in my soul fired Don Van Vurren's soul and kindled the faith of the people. Wherever it spread it set men on fire for God.

Friends, we need a coming up into God. This church, and the church around, need to come up into God. We have been traveling around in a circle, digging out nosed into the ground, and we have had out eyes on the ground instead of in the clouds, instead of up at the throne. Look up to the glorified One! I want to see His bleeding hands, look to heaven where He is to see them. Do not go back to Calvary to see Him. He is risen, regnant, glorified Son of God; risen with all power and all authority, with the keys of hell and of death! He is the divine authority, the eternal overcoming, the divine manifestation of God. And you and the regnant, glorified Christ as one, are the divine manifestation of God. Come up to the throne, dear ones. Let the throne life, and the throne love and the throne power and the throne spirit and the Holy Ghost in heaven possess you, and you will be a new man in Christ Jesus! And your tread will be the march of the conqueror and your song the song of victory and your crown the crown of glory and your power the power of God.

Edited by
Wilford H. Reidt
1220 S. Beech
Kennewick, Washington

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

When Will the Maddness End?!

The new years celebrations have come and gone, and now I'm left with the remedial tasks like going to work everyday, and school on the opposite days...simply waiting for Spring to finally arrive. Every year I get to this point where I am like--AHH, seriously, NO MORE WINTER!! And, this year, literally, has been the wimpiest winter I've pretty much ever witnessed!! (Thankfully!!) I am still ready for the warm breezes of Spring to blow in though, for sure.

I feel like a lot has happened already this year, even though we're only a mere 18 days into it. I am excited to see what the coming days and months bring for my family and I, and for the people in my life. I think this is going to be an awesome year, in fact, I'm just going to say it, this IS going to be a totally kick-butt year! I am ready to begin seeing dreams fulfilled, goals accomplished, and friendships to be deepened! It is going to be a goooood one! :)


One thing I am REALLLY looking forward to this year, is my entire family going to California for our Thanksgiving week, and spending it with Michelle at her place, instead of her coming here! I've been out there to see her a few times, but the whole family hasn't been there together, so I know it's going to be soo much fun!! I also am reallllllly hoping I am able to continue my little tradition of going to see Shell over my Spring Break (if I can afford it!), it is always such a wonderful, relaxing break in between the semester, soo, hoping I can make that happen!

Anyhow, I pray blessings over everyone who is reading this, and your families in this new year! May God prove Himself faithful in many ways! And think warm, happy thoughts...Spring will soon be upon us! (At least 'us' here...where I live! Hehe!)

oxox

Sunday, January 1, 2012

The Official 1st of 2012.

Wellllll....2012!

<< Let's hope the Mayans weren't correct in assuming that this is our last year all together on planet earth. But, if they were, then...that's that :)

For real though...I can't believe a whole year has gone by again! I've never really been a "new years resolution" person or anything, mostly because everyone always makes them and never fulfills them, so I figure why even bother. I did however, recently make a 5 year plan. They're definitely more like guidelines though, in that, some may be out of my control but I want to aim for something at least...

Without a vision the people perish. Proverbs 29.18. Thus, I aim to have a vision.
This morning in church the teaching was about leaving what is in the past in the past. That basically, and obviously what is done is done and at this point there is nothing we can do about anything that we said or didn't say in 2011...but what we do have is today. And we have the chance to learn from our pasts and strive for better in our futures. It was a very timely word for me, and I guess for the world in general because people tend to think of these kind of things when a new year is upon us.

So...let's all seize the day (and days) ahead of us, and aim to be walking in the will of the Lord for each of our individual lives!

Happy New Year to everyone!! Carpe Diem!