On March 5th, I got married to this great man, whom I love + adore + have the privilege of sharing my whole life with going forward!
(Our wedding day pictured below, photo credit to my amazing bestie, Jenni, owner of www.Jenniphotography.com)
On or around April 6th, we found out we were expecting a baby!! (Yes, a real live human baby that would be all ours to raise + not mess up 9 months later!)
(Our little gummy bear's first photo below! Ah! I can't believe this is REAL!)
May 27th, we adopted a super fuzzy, super chill and unfailingly adorable pup into our family- thus making us a family of 4, all within a few months!
(Flash- pictured below, just because I wanted to prove how fuzzy + adorable he really is!)
And I know, we've done all of this to ourselves! Lol! We had to fall in love and get married! And choose to begin our family right away, and the whole puppy thing, I know you probably think we're nuts adding that to the mix on top of all the other MAJOR life changes we're adjusting to already. But, I mean really, what kid doesn't want to grow up with a fuzzy pillow to play with?! (Probably some! Haha! But we want our kids to have a furry friend!)
Out of all the big changes, parenthood is probably the biggest one I am currently attempting to wrap my head around. S/he isn't even here yet, but has already flipped my world upside down! 24/7 nausea- thankfully letting up recently- my life, body and emotions in a constant state of flux- thank God my husband is trying his best to be understanding. And then there's just the sheer fact of, hey, we are going to be PARENTS here pretty soon. It really is a big adjustment. A major responsibility. Something that I really hope that we can accomplish successfully.
I've always seen Alex be great with kids. It's actually one of the many things I really love about him. He can be a kid with them at the drop of a hat, LOVES babies, and they seem to like him too... and I've just had a lot of confidence in the fact that he'll be a wonderful and loving Father. Of course, we'll both have a lot to learn, but these things just come more naturally for some people.
Myself on the other hand... babysitting as a teenager was probably the lowest priority on my list, and actually something I didn't like at all, even dreaded. (Michelle was more into that, Lol, and now she's a NICU nurse, go figure!! Little baby lover!!) And while I've always adored my closest friends children, I was always happy that they didn't have to come home with me! Ha! To put it honestly. And while I knew I'd be a mother one day, I just always felt like it was wayyyyyy off in the distance. But, I guess being 31 and married is arriving at that far off sight.
I was excited when I found out I was pregnant. Excited + shocked (man, that happened fast!!). And a little nervous. Just hoping I would be able to become a natural at this. That I would have it in me to be as selfless as all my amazing Mom-friends, and able to truly give all of my time, effort, love and affection to my future child, while trying to do the exact same thing for my new husband. I guess you could say I just felt a lot of the pressures that would be on me in that moment.
I'm really in the process of letting God show me the mother in me. I've been told I am this naturally nurturing person, and I've even been called "motherly" in ways, which I take as really high compliments. The truth is though, I've never had to be that person at all times. 24/7. But it is comforting to know I might at least have the basis for all of that within me. I'm really taking this time during pregnancy to learn more about myself, read, learn, ask questions. So, I am thankful it will take a while longer for the little one to be with us outside of my stomach! :)
I guess ultimately I really just have to trust. I have to trust God to lead and guide both Alex + I on this new journey. And trust that I do have what it takes to be a great Mom, and trust Alex to know he'll be a great Dad... and that being surrounded by supportive parents, siblings and friends we really can do this! And it might even be a lot of fun! Clearly things are always better when they're fun! :)
So, that's my life currently. Send us prayers + good vibes when you think of it! :)
I don't think they would go wasted!
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