Do you know what I mean?

As I continue to "grown up" more and more, a lot of understanding about life and other human beings comes into focus more and more clearly. The single most important bit of information that has been collected to date is this, HUMANS ARE EXTREMELY COMPLICATED BEINGS! :)

I'm not saying that in a bad way, at all!! However, it is something that is very true. There are so many factors that go into what makes people tick, and the way they go about their individual days, plans and rituals. As a person who wants to make her profession that of a Therapist, these things are really interesting to me!

I love to know people, and for them to feel known also. It's such an innate desire in people to have that connection with other people. To feel understood. To feel valued. To feel a sense of belonging. The closer (relationally) I am to others, the more I want to know them, and to understand the things that bother them, make them happy or upset, etc.

I also continue to see how bad I am at those things in moments! How I fall short in conveying my care, compassion and love for those around me at all moments. I mean, no one is perfect, and that is fine. However, truly knowing people within my sphere of influence, and having a heart full of mercy, grace and love is something that is on the "top 3" of my life goals...so when I see myself not living up to the standard in that, it's easy to be disappointed.

Thankfully, I have this example set before me. One who has done these things to perfection, time and time again. This man has just set the bar for me, and I know for many others. He defined love, and continues to define it. He is the one who invented it! And embodies it! He thought of relationships, and knew the dynamics that humans would struggle with in family units, relationships and friendships. Undaunted by the selflessness love requires, still goes into the deepest places in hearts, setting people free, and empowering us to love and live these lives he wants us to live. I'm thankful for this man and his love and how it has altered (and daily still alters) my life.

Jesus is and will always be the most beautiful man in my life. The most amazing and comforting thing I've ever encountered or ever will. I pray that my life continually becomes more and more like him and what his heart looks like. It is hard. It is SO hard in moments, but I know that it is something that can happen as I seek him with all of my heart and soul.

He brings that meaning and understanding that each person longs for, and searches for in their highs and lows. I am ever thankful that he found me, holds on to me and never lets me go.