Day 17...

I somehow knew that when I moved away from Henderson, it would bring me into a new season of my life where I'd be [forced] to learn how to depend on God in lots of new ways! Not that I am resistant to learning that in my life, I just know that sometimes lessons like that come as somewhat of a challenge. Especially when you've had it pretty easy in life and pretty much never had to worry about things like money, food, water...[you know, the essentials!] All toiling aside though, I knew this was something I needed to do in my own life and a lesson I wanted to walk through by myself, not depending on anyone but God.

Regardless of how favorable the conditions I moved into were [no rent, basically no bills but my own stuff]... the first couple of weeks I still found myself getting all caught up in worry & concern about not making enough money, or being able to save enough for the fall when I go back to school- blah blah blah...

Even though the Bible clearly states that I'm not supposed to worry about tomorrow and not to worry about the clothes I wear or the food I'll eat, because God knows what I need, and He takes care of little flowers and birds. So how much more will He take care of me...His own daughter!?

All comforting verses aside, I was increasingly irritated at my meager 1 or 2 shifts a week at my new job- and becoming all anxious about the bills that were due in just a few weeks. Then!! The miracle occurred!! Just a few short mornings ago, I woke up and checked my bank account to see when exactly all my stuff was due to be paid...and I saw it!!! A check from LOWE'S!!! I had not gotten paid for the last few shifts I had there and I had completely forgotten!!!

My response of course was something like "THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!! This is TOTALLY saving my life!!!!!!!" Then the more I thought about the previous days I spent worrying and not trusting what I already knew was true, I realized that God really isn't going to just leave me hanging. He knew I'd be freaking out when I didn't get enough hours at work, and He knew I had enough money coming in to cover everything I need before I knew it! He just knew, and all I needed to do was wait on Him & trust what He told me.

So-- once the miracle occurred I proceeded to feel like a huge nerd for letting myself get all crazy over nothing, but was thankful for the lesson :) I know it's just a baby lesson, but I know that it's all just part of my walk with God and Him teaching me & showing me that I can completely trust my life to Him.