I deleted my Facebook!!
I have been on this adventure with the Lord for the last 4 years of my life. [Even though I was completely unaware at the time] God orchestrated a divine plan for me to up and move 6 hours away from ALL of my friends, and family [besides Jon] to move to a little town called Henderson, Kentucky. And in this little town of Henderson, He ordained the time and activities I would then execute in my life. He had this planned all along. He knew it would be one of the most intense experiences of my life, knowing that it would be very difficult in seasons and filled with joy in others.
Anyhow I can hear you wondering...."Oooook, what on earth does that have to do with Facebook?"...and here it is!!
So all this time I have been in Henderson, and I have been blessed in relationships. For the beginning of my journey God put by my side two of the most faithful and loving friends I have ever had. We journeyed together through this foreign land and...God [probably] said it was good! Then He chose to take those two away from Henderson [much to my sadness] but He was so faithful to bring new friends into my life. Even though they could never replace what I had previously, it was a blessing and comfort. Because who doesn't like companionship to walk this road of life with?
And as I've been journeying on, friends coming and friends going, God has always made sure that I have someone there to encourage me, lift me up in hard moments--and for me to do likewise for them. And now, I feel Him moving upon my heart--and lovingly threatening to go with me where I've never gone before...
On a further journey...alone with Him.
And if you know me, you know I love people. I love socializing, and being with groups of people basically all the time. Yet, I hear his beckoning..."Come away with ME!"
And that can be soo hard to do in a society where you can be in constant communication with someone basically at all moments of the day...when that intimacy and flow of relationship was meant to be contained with in the confines of our relationships' with God.
So I guess it is more symbolic, so to say-- deleting my Facebook. It's like I am saying to God, I hear you...and I want what you have for me too. I want to go to that secret place with You God, and I am willing to lay down everything that I have previously thought that I needed to survive in this life. And it's like I am just conveying to myself and Him that I am trusting Him to keep the people in my life who need to be there.
This would have scared me so much a few years ago. Being so far from the majority of my friends, in moments I've felt like I need to scramble constantly to hold onto them all, just because I love them. But I think I am seeing the deeper truth that my heart didn't exactly understand until recently.
He is everything. He's all I need. And He loves relationships, He made them. And He loves blessing us with in relationships...but nothing can ever win over the relationship that I need to have with Him.
He is my husband. [after all, what husband wouldn't feel slightly disheartened if all you were ever trying to do it pour into other relationships??]
So...I am just really excited to see where this new season goes...and to see the places He is going to take me.
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